Well this is my second blog and I have decided that I will blog atleast once a week. So what has happened with me since my first blog? Well let's see... Penny and I will be celebrating our one year wedding anniversary tomorrow. Angel is growing up so fast. Her first day of kindergarten will be here before I know it (Aug 27). She finally gave in and let me cut her hair off. It was so long, unhealthy and tangled with just the wind blowing. I was over it! lol. Her hair was almost down to her waistline. She has told me no for so long, about cutting her hair, that I was in shock when she finally told me yes. It is now up to her shoulders in a sort of bob cut, with bangs. She loves it, and she looks so cute. OF COURSE SHE DOES!!!

Ok, now on to the big news.... I am getting the lap-band surgery done. I had my first initial consultation done this week and Penny went with me. I like the doctor and his staff. This is a MUCH safer procedure then the bypass, and I feel much more comfortable in knowing that I can succeed with this weight loss help. If all goes well, and there are no hang ups with my appointments that are mandatory, and my health insurance company.... I should be having my surgery around Aug 21. No set date yet. Won't know til it gets closer. Just depends on everything else.

Thank the BIG MAN UPSTAIRS! That I don't have any life threatening medical issues, just yet. I AM JUST FAT!!! I don't have high blood pressure, or diabetes. And I don't have high cholesterol. I don't smoke, drink or do drugs. So really other than being morbidly obese, I am ok. This surgery will help me, not get to these life threatening medical concerns, that would happen sooner if I stayed Morbidly Obese for much longer. I am not saying I don't have things wrong with me... which I do... I have horrible acid reflux, headaches/sometimes migraines, and I have degenerative disk disease in my lowerback. These are not life threatening but they do play a major role with my weight. Once I lose the weight, I shouldn't have acid reflux anymore. My headaches and migraines should lessen. Having the weight gone, will help my degenerative disk disease. There wont be as much pressure on my lower back where I have the problems.

So since I have decided to get the lap-band done, I have done SOME MAJOR THINKING!!! Every day I come up with something new to think about and talk to Penny about. She laughs at me and says she doesn't know the answers to my questions. I am going to share some of my thoughts and questions.... now remember, this is all coming from a fat girls perspective, trying to think like a thinner girl....

1. I will have a lap for Angel to sit on! I don't remember having a lap, EVER, since I have always been FLUFFY! lol.
2. In approximately 12=18 months I will be at my target weight, and will have lost 65% of myself, of the size I am right now. Can you IMAGINE? This causes butterflies in my stomach! In a year and a half or a little less, I will weigh what I should....
3. With that being said-- With my height, and bone structure, I need to weight about 140-145. I will have lost another person!!!
4. So at say... 145lbs, what size would I be? I am so anxious to know this? I know we are all made different, but I really would like to know what size is a weight of 145, with a height of 5'2", with a larger bone structure.
5. What shape will my body be?
6. Will I lose my boobs? They are not very big as it is.
7. I will be able to bend over and tie my shoes.
8. I will look and feel better. I will have more energy.
9. My tummy won't touch my steering wheel in my car.
10. I will be able to ride a horse for the first time.
11. If we take trips... I won't be cramped in an airplane seat. And Southwest Airlines won't make me pay for an additional seat, cause I won't be a fat person anymore!
12.  Office chairs will last longer.
13. I will be able to wear a dress without it looking like a tarp.
14. I will be able to sit comfortably in a booth in a restaurant, and not be squished.
15. Will my feet and hands get smaller too? By how much? Will I lose a shoe size? Or will it just be the width of my foot?
16. Will my head shrink?
17. I can't wait til I can walk without friction going on between my thighs! If I was stranded on a desert island right now, I could start a fire between my thighs! Seriously!

So I have started with something small. I bought my first belt in over 13 years. It is two sizes smaller than what I am now. So by that time when some of this weight is lost, I will need a belt to hold up my jeans that I currently own. I will wear them baggy with a belt as long as I can. My plan is... to buy jeans that are smaller, and with a belt for that size, so that when I have to buy jeans, they will last a while, and I will wear those also with a belt and have them baggy for a while.  Clothes are so expensive. Until all my weight is lost, I think the thrift stores will be my shopping ground. Gotta go cheap if I am not going to be wearing them for very long. I don't like walmart clothes, they fit wierd. Well atleast their Plus Size clothes do anyway.

My next Lap-Band Appt is Tuesday July 10, 2012, at 9am to noon. It is a 3 hour appt that consists of a psych eval, a nutritionist appt, and a nurse practioner educational appt. GO ME!!!

This is it for me, until next time!